Shattered.

Do you know what it feels like to know someone close to you was called closed to death? 
Or how it's like to have thought that they had died in your arms? 
I do.
In fact, it wasn't just a thought. 
It was real.

That image and memory of it still vividly flashes on and off, reminding me of how close I came to loosing her. 

The thought that I could have lost her at any moment then, still freshly runs, and reruns over and again across my mind. 

That moment, I thought I would have loose her for good.

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Today, unfortunately that moment had came to live.

I've merely had her for only a short 20 days and never have I thought that I would loose her this instant. 

She would have been 3 months by the 10th.

But unfortunately, she's gone. 

In loving memory of Kibbles.

♥

10.11.11 - 05.02.12

Slapped with Mumps.

I fucking caught Mumps, AGAIN!  Щ(ºДºщ)  This is utter bullshit seriously. 
They say Mumps are usually caught by children, teenage boys or men. Really?? Cause as far as I'm concern, I'm no longer a kid, neither do I recall seeing myself in the mirror looking any part like a guy! 
This is already the second time I've caught it, the first was almost a decade ago and I can remember it like it was just a day ago. It was a torture T_T

But before you jump into conclusion on how swollen my face is,  I shall just show you instead. It isn't as bad as you would have Googled or imagine I suppose.

This picture doesn't exactly do any justice, but hey, who the hell would post an absurdly swollen and ugly picture of themselves man? Well, at least I know I won't ( I'm self obsessive :3 ) 

But anyway, you could actually see the slight swollen cheeks of mine here :/ Oh well, at least it's not as bad as the last time I had it. And hopefully it subsides before my classes on Monday. I cannot afford and don't want to afford to look like a swollen pig for class! ;O